A Year and Several Days Into an Experiment

It has been a year since I started this blog. And true to form, I have lived in two different places Nashville and NYC/NJ. I feel as if I have two different blogs just thinking about it. Now I am trying to figure out what to do with my blog. December had to be the worst blog month for me concerning entries and making sense to a wider audience. In other words, I felt that I was trying to capture snapshots of what was going on around me but had insufficient time to flesh them out. And right now, I want to talk about Saddam Hussein's execution, the President's revised Iraq policy and the swearing in of a new Congress and Senate, but it has all become background noise. Things on the home front concerning immediate family, larger family and the future are pretty tight. Plus, I am starting to wonder about blogging. I can write whatever I want, but the question becomes in the end, "Who is my audience ?". And there is the crux of my dilemma.

So, in 2007 I want to start all over.

There are a ton of things concerning sex and sugar that I have been pretty tight lipped about because I wanted to touch on larger issues concerning the world, but my desire to talk about that is waning in the catastrophe that our political process has become. I also have felt that treatises on the larger world or the application of my political views to the world around me can become boring to my readers. I have thought of myself as a writer and an artist probably longer than I have thought of myself as a bumbling teacher/academic and reporter, so for now, my everyday observations are what I want to concentrate on in my blog entries. After all, being diabetic, that is all I do. I sit in observance of how I feel physically. I watch for mood swings. I watch for sudden hunger and the shakes as I approach blood sugar rock bottom. And, I watch for sluggishness and grogginess after lunch, signaling a dangerous blood sugar high and its required guilt.

So, I promise to get to what I felt was the story I wanted to tell at the end of 2006 and the beginning of 2007. In 2 previous posts I talked about tiring of boys and my 14-year-old excursions to the projects with my play big brother Andre as he conquered 2 women there. In some weird way they are linked. Sugar and desire, maybe this is my life's journey.